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New Roundbottom: The Inkblot Spider…

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…and her prey.  This week, I wasn’t able to get to a decent pod­cast script, so I worked up an image I’ve had in the hop­per for a while now.  This week details the pre­da­tions and some bio notes of a unique species of spi­der that feeds on moth pix­ies in Roundbottom’s world.  Check out the Inkblot Spider and share your thoughts.

In other news, I am weigh­ing a sale for my inven­tory of images that I have printed.  I’m con­sid­er­ing $30 mem­ber­ships from now until the end of the year or until I run out of pre-​​printed stock, whichever comes first.

I’ll admit that I’m dis­ap­pointed with my suc­cess regard­ing mem­ber­ship kits.  I sold 9 kits, and I really appre­ci­ate those of you who bought them.  Unfortunately, sales have dropped off entirely.  I’m con­sid­er­ing giv­ing up entirely on lim­ited edi­ton prints and sell­ing every­thing on the site for $20 a piece.  Any thoughts?

It’s hard to keep at this so much when I feel like it’s not as pop­u­lar as I want it to be.  Traffic is low, sales are nonex­is­tent.  I know what you’re thinking–do it because you enjoy it, not to make money.  Well, no.  I’m sorry, but I’d like to make a liv­ing from my cre­ative endeav­ours and I don’t think there’s any­thing wrong with that.  I enjoy the project, but if there is not a large enough audi­ence to jus­tify my time and energy in the project, then I will have to move on to some­thing else.  I have a lot of faith in the gen­eral con­cept of the project, but I am increas­ingly cer­tain that it won’t turn a profit at all.  My best bet is prob­a­bly to use all of it as back­ground research and turn out a novel.  Keep the site updat­ing on a lower fre­quency and turn the whole thing into a good rea­son to pub­lish the book (beyond it being really good or something).

I’ve been mean­ing to write a book for a num­ber of years now.  I started writ­ing my first book attempt just before my father was diag­nosed with can­cer.  I’ve given up on that book along wth most of  of my writ­ing.  But the truth is that I haven’t been able to let go of that cre­ative urge, that drive to make some­thing that mat­ters, even if it only mat­ters in the form of fleet­ing entertainment.

But even though I’ve given up so much, I haven’t been able to give up on Roundbottom.  Maybe it’s because the char­ac­ter is a thinly dis­guised ver­sion of what I wanted to be once upon a time.  I don’t know.  But I want to keep try­ing to make some­thing of this in some form, even if it’s not the web­site and the weekly updates.  I just don’t know exactly what the best use of my time would be.  Look, I have stu­dent loans that would make you wince.  I may never be out of debt in my adult life with­out devel­op­ing some sort of alter­na­tive rev­enue stream to accel­er­ate my pay­off. I’m try­ing to buy my free­dom here.  If this doesn’t work, I’ll find some­thing else to sell, and I’ll keep try­ing until some­thing comes out of my gourd.   Because I want my free­dom so bad I can taste it, and right now, these projects are the best thing I have to accel­er­ate my earn­ing that.

Roundbottom Foundation Membership Packets

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Yeah, I know you’re prob­a­bly tired of hear­ing about all this, but it’s all I am work­ing on right now.  You def­i­nitely don’t want to read about my work or pol­i­tics.  Anyway, I’m work­ing on the Roundbottom Foundation mem­ber­ship pack­ets.   So far these pack­ets include:

  • one 8x10 print of either the Curious Mycoid, Another Clockwork Curiosity, The Common Maned Sprite, or Regarding Moth Pixies and Browncaps.  These prints will printed on  Fuji Luster Pro paper.  be stamped on the back with the offi­cial City seal and will be signed by Dr. Roundbottom.
  • A spe­cially addressed for­mal mem­ber­ship card with your steam­punk name on it. Or your real one, what­ever you want.
  • A let­ter of thanks from Miss Watkins
  • Access to the members-​​only area of the site, which pro­vides a behind-​​the-​​scenes look at how Dr. Roundbottom’s pho­tonic cap­tures and pod­casts are made.  Will include hilar­i­ous out­takes from pod­cast ses­sions and dis­carded pho­tos.  Basically, fun stuff.  This area will update monthly.

All of this for a $35 “dona­tion”*.   All images not listed above will sell in lim­ited edi­tions of 50 in a 16x20 size for $125 per print.  These will signed and stamped as well.  If you buy a larger print, you will receive a free mem­ber­ship in the Roundbottom Society.

I’d be more than happy to hear sug­ges­tions for other mem­ber­ship perks I should give.  Leave me a note in the com­ments.  I still need to make the mem­ber­ship cards.

So there are the near final­ized finan­cials behind the Clockpunk project.  I won’t even go into how much bloody money I’ve spent on this thing.  It will take a very long time to recoup my expenses, if I ever do.  I’m doing this because I really enjoy it.  Money from mem­ber­ships will mostly be turned right back into props, mate­ri­als, and photo equipement.   Maybe I’ll sell a bunch of lim­it­eds and I can rent that stu­dio space down town.  I really need an indoor place to shoot soon with win­ter approaching.

*Not really a dona­tion.  We’re not non-​​profit.  Not that we’re actu­ally mak­ing a profit, mind you…

A Call for First Readers

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I’m look­ing for 3–4 indi­vid­u­als who would be will­ing to review the new Roundbottom posts before I make them live on the site.  I need fresh eyes that can catch bad sen­tences, stu­pid gram­mar, stu­pid any­thing really.  Without an edi­tor in the process, I worry about pub­lish­ing some really sub­par.  I’m less con­cerned with sto­ry­telling con­ven­tions, as this project is an exper­i­ment in dif­fer­ent meth­ods there–but any­one inter­ested in pro­vid­ing me feed­back, shoot me an email.  I’ll take the first few peo­ple inter­ested.  Thank you in advance.

The Paradox of Choice

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This New York Times arti­cle hits on some­thing that I’ve been wor­ry­ing about for some time, which is that it seems that there are more and more peo­ple tak­ing up writ­ing, while at the same time, fewer are read­ing. I thought this was a prob­lem spe­cific to the SF short fic­tion world, but it sounds like a greater issue in pub­lish­ing in general.

I’m not gloomy about the pos­si­bil­i­ties though. For a deter­mined reader, there is more out there to find than there ever has been before (of course, you can say that in any given moment, as old books don’t go away, at least not imme­di­ately). What we need are bet­ter ways of fit­ting the con­tent to the con­sumers. I do think that before the infor­ma­tion rev­o­lu­tion that came with the rise of the Internet, find­ing con­tent you would like to con­sume was eas­ier. There was less to choose from, and you could eval­u­ate your choices more quickly. Now, I sus­pect many are par­a­lyzed by choice.

Barry Schwartz, writer and researcher, believes that infi­nite choice is exhaust­ing. He makes a very inter­est­ing case for this in a talk that he gave at TED recently. He also pub­lished a book in 2004 called The Paradox of Choice (ama­zon). I haven’t read this book, but I think it’s going to go on my stack of things to read.

One aspect of the arti­cle that struck home with me was this:

On the whole, Zaid is unwor­ried about the pro­lif­er­a­tion of books, though he doesn’t think every­one should set pen to paper. “About would-​​be writ­ers, André Gide used to say: ‘Découragez! Découragez!’”(discourage!), Zaid said in an e-​​mail mes­sage. “The impli­ca­tion was that real writ­ers would not be dis­cour­aged, and the rest would save a lot of time. Of course, some medi­oc­ri­ties are never dis­cour­aged, and some poten­tial real writ­ers would be lost. But there is so much tal­ent around that we can afford it.”

I was dis­cour­aged, along with many other 8th grade writ­ers, by James Gunn just as I was start­ing to be inter­ested in writ­ing. He gave a depress­ing and detailed talk to us about how dif­fi­cult that it is to become pub­lished, and how lit­tle money there was to be made. Even before the Internet, things weren’t all sun­shine and roses around here. He was never asked back to our con­fer­ences, which was a shame, because I think he brought up some very good points. But I think he shared the same opin­ion that Gide did. However, his dis­cour­age­ment didn’t stick, and I hope to meet him again some­time in the future to thank him. In some ways, his dis­cour­age­ment spurred me to push on with my writ­ing. At the end of his talk, despite being so neg­a­tive, he encour­aged those of us in atten­dance to mail our man­u­scripts to him and he would pro­vide us feed­back. I don’t know if any­one else did, but I sent a story I had writ­ten recently, a kind of para­nor­mal SF piece. He sent back the most care­fully writ­ten, won­der­fully help­ful com­ments. His gen­eros­ity has not been for­got­ten, and along with Ann Tonsor Zeddies, I con­sider him one of the first to men­tor me in the craft.

I want to write more about this paral­y­sis and para­dox of choice, and some pos­si­ble solu­tions. I think we can find ways to arti­fi­cially and help­fully limit our choices with­out sti­fling new cre­ative work. We already have some ser­vices, such as Amazon Suggests and some fea­tures on Netflix that help to do this. I’d love to see a sys­tem built that tracks as much of the short story mar­ket as pos­si­ble, hav­ing data­base entries for each story. As read­ers, we would open accounts and flag the sto­ries that we liked. And then, the site would make rec­om­men­da­tions based on what we have liked in the past, sug­gest­ing new authors, new pub­li­ca­tions, and new sto­ries that me might not come across oth­er­wise. The sys­tem would learn and be trained over time, and soon, it could be a very effec­tive means of lim­it­ing choice with­out burn­ing down mar­kets or run­ning of writ­ers. It’s a long tail tac­tic and it isn’t going to make any­one rich, but I think it has some merit. I’d look into build­ing some­thing like this, but I think the match­ing algo­rithms are way beyond my pro­gram­ming skills, and the data entry part would be dif­fi­cult to main­tain with­out the help of the indi­vid­ual edi­tors and pub­lish­ers. No one per­son could keep the con­tent up-​​to-​​date, although I sup­pose you could offload that respon­si­bil­ity to the read­ers as well–but then, that sounds like work, and might reduce the poten­tial user base for the site. Also, you intro­duce the pos­si­bil­ity of typos, intro­duc­ing dupli­cate data that would make matches much harder.

I will write more on this sub­ject when I’ve read more on the para­dox of choice, which has impli­ca­tions in web design as well—something I was think­ing about as I designed the lay­out of my new site, and is the rea­son you don’t find a full-​​fledged archive any­where. I attempt to limit the choice of new read­ers to my best entries and the lat­est con­tent, and I put many choices in the footer, kind of push­ing them out of the way so that only the deter­mined would find them, and they wouldn’t inter­fere with the more casual reader. I can’t say how well this has worked yet.

How do you han­dle the glut of choice avail­able to you in your read­ing today? Does it result in you read­ing more, or less? What are your strategies?

The Addictive Properties of Creative Work

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As I enter a phase of high pro­duc­tiv­ity, I am reminded of the par­al­lels I detect between the way I inter­act with my cre­ativ­ity and the effect of addic­tive drugs (as I have read, any­way. I’ve never taken any, unless you count xanax.)

Acts of cre­ativ­ity bring on an emo­tional and energy high while I am in the act, but after the work is done, that high dis­solves rapidly and often becomes a full on energy crash. Novelists call it the post-​​book blues, I think? I get the post-​​Flickr upload blues. I won­der if chem­i­cally, the act of cre­ation oper­ates in a sim­i­lar effect–or is it really just the zen state that we enter when we act with­out thought, when we are in the “zone” that has the high/​crash/​addictive prop­er­ties. It’s a bit of a chicken-​​or-​​egg prob­lem in that context.

I find that the best way to keep from crash­ing after a project is to roll imme­di­ately into a new one. Finish a pho­to­shoot, process it, upload it, bask in the awe­some com­ments of my blog read­ers, and at least do 20–30 min­utes on the next thing. The bask­ing part, the pos­i­tive feed­back, is part of the addic­tive­ness as well, and the part I don’t man­age as well. It stretches out the high, I think, and car­ries the good feel­ings from the cre­ation onward longer. After I post new pic­tures, I have a hard time leav­ing the com­puter, and not refresh­ing Flickr and check­ing my email 10 times an hour. I find myself crav­ing that injec­tion of warmth, and as it peters off, as all things do, then I get cranky and low. I’m try­ing to value feed­back a lit­tle less, but given that my self-​​esteem is tied in some ways to the exter­nal per­cep­tion of me, it’s not an easy thing to do. “Awesome image/​story/​website” are the phrases that boost my self-​​confidence more than almost any­thing else. I’m try­ing to change that, but that’s another sub­ject entirely.

Do any of you have this prob­lem of the post-​​work crash? How do you deal with it? What are your cop­ing strategies?

Writing Progress, Lack Thereof and Tropes, Liked by Me

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I am utterly fail­ing to keep up the pace of writ­ing this week. No words. Not even any revi­sions. I prob­a­bly shouldn’t have bought that design book ear­lier this week. It’s great for the day job stuff, but read­ing it eats up the time and energy I should be spend­ing work­ing on my next story.

There’s this trope I am exam­in­ing right now. One of the things about sec­ond world fan­tasy that both­ers me is that it’s rarely very ambi­tious with how dif­fer­ent things are from our world. Now, before you burn me at the stake, hear me out.
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Postmortem:“Babe, I Am Going to Leave You”

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Yesterday, I released my intensely per­sonal story of death, Led Zeppelin, and how fam­i­lies cope with death, “Babe, I am Going to Leave You” as a CC-​​licensed story. A friend asked what my think­ing was behind doing this, so I thought I’d break it down in a blog post, in case any­one else was interested.I wrote this story, over the course of about a year, in an attempt to come to terms with my own father’s death from can­cer. I always intended to try and pub­lish it some­where like any other story I wrote, but once I tried doing so, I found I had invested too much of myself to be able to han­dle the rejec­tions. Most rejec­tions are slightly painful, but you can shrug them off. I just couldn’t shrug off rejec­tions to this story.

I strug­gled with whether I should essen­tially “self-​​publish” the story. I don’t have a large read­er­ship here. I’m not John Scalzi or Jay Lake, although I hope to attract as many fol­low­ers some day. Am I the only writer who won­ders about max­i­miz­ing the audi­ence for their sto­ries, or do we all worry about that? I don’t make much money from my sto­ries, so I’ve focused on grow­ing an audi­ence more than the money.

I also wor­ried that some would see releas­ing the story myself as a coward’s way out. I do feel guilty for not try­ing harder to find a place to pub­lish the story that could have given it more read­ers than I could on my own. The story is, in a big way, my way of hon­or­ing my father. Did I do him honor just releas­ing it to the hand­ful of peo­ple who read this? I don’t know. I was tired of hav­ing it here, and hav­ing no one read it though. I really wanted to do good with this story. I had expe­ri­enced some­thing pro­found and painful, and I wanted to help oth­ers get through a sim­i­lar expe­ri­ence. The chance to do some good, even a lit­tle, is what con­vinced me it was the right thing to do.

I want to thank those of you who linked my story in your own blogs. I really appre­ci­ated that. It made me feel much more like I made a good choice here. And those of you who have writ­ten me, thank­ing me for post­ing the story. I am glad that it has helped you.

In the future, I will def­i­nitely con­tinue to release reprints of my sto­ries online under the Creative Commons. It can only help a writer at my stage of career. I don’t think I will release any other unpub­lished sto­ries though, because I think it’s too easy and attrac­tive to cir­cum­vent the rejection/​acceptance process.

For exam­ple, I have this story about a plague that turns famous peo­ple into plas­tic stat­ues and about the peo­ple who col­lect the for­merly famous like base­ball cards. It’s got a very polit­i­cal slant, and never found a home prob­a­bly because of that, or maybe because it’s not as funny as I think it is. There’s a strong temp­ta­tion to just pub­lish it on the web, espe­cially because it’s par­tially about Bush and he’s about to leave the White House (I hope) and the story will lose its rel­e­vancy at that point. I don’t know. Maybe I can find a pub­lisher for it int he next 9 months. Or I can sell it as alt-​​history futur­ism later.

Still, regard­less, I am glad I released this one story this way. Thank you for read­ing it.

The Role of Idea in my Fiction

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Part of my mini­cri­sis last week about writ­ing and get­ting back to it was that I was hav­ing trou­ble gen­er­at­ing the ideas part of the equa­tion. This is almost always my start­ing point; a cool idea that I can at least delude myself is some­thing new that I haven’t seen done before. Or a twist on an old idea. Just, some­thing fresh. Some peo­ple might start with a plot or a char­ac­ter, but I don’t find myself work­ing that way​.My flow is Idea->Character->Plot ->Theme mag­i­cally appears when it all comes together. Theme for me is a mys­te­ri­ous thing that the sub­con­scious puts into the work. It’s like the under­pants gnomes from South Park/​Slashdot meme: Step One: Get Idea, Character, and Plot. Step Two: write story. Step Three:???? End Result: Theme (Profit!).

Lately, I have been try­ing to estab­lish an idea for an over­all mood when I start a piece, par­tic­u­larly in my fan­tasy sto­ries. From my read­ing of clas­sic, non-​​genre short sto­ries, it seems that mood is the most impor­tant thing. Stories can get away with not hav­ing a plot like genre read­ers expect, because the way the story makes you feel is the whole point. I think genre sto­ries are often thought as being about how they make you think. There’s no rea­son they can’t be about both, and I sus­pect the most suc­cess­ful sto­ries are ones that do both.

I think I’ve been work­ing on the mood/​how the story makes you feel thing for a while now, but I came to it first by try­ing to be funny. Later, I broaded my emo­tional hori­zons, you could say. I think “The Yeti Behind Me” (Published in the Fantasy Sampler) is my most suc­cess­ful story for cre­at­ing a mood. Followed by an as-​​of-​​yet unpub­lished story called “Maggie’s Man.” But even early work like “Girl with the Sun in her Head” had some of this. It wasn’t inten­tional then, but it ended up in there any­way, and I’m sure that’s part of why it sold.

I don’t know why, but I have real trou­ble try­ing to put a mood into a more sci­ence fic­tional piece. For some rea­son, when I work in that mode, think­ing about things like emo­tional con­tent is much harder. The ana­lyt­i­cal very eas­ily over­pow­ers the emo­tional for me. It’s some­thing I really need to work on, because I would like to write more sci­ence fic­tion than I do.

An Interview Regarding Dr. Roundbottom

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K. Tempest Bradford has inter­viewed me for Fantasy mag­a­zine about my Dr. Roundbottom project. The inter­view is now live here.

K. Tempest Bradford: Did the ini­tial inspi­ra­tion for Dr. Roundbottom start with the pho­tog­ra­phy or with the story?

Jeremiah Tolbert: The work started specif­i­cally in pho­tog­ra­phy. I had an oppor­tu­nity after a week of rain to go out and take some pic­tures of mush­rooms. I started play­ing with some of the images in post, and ended up cre­at­ing my most pop­u­lar pho­to­graph, the eye­ball mush­room. From there, I started writ­ing flash fic­tion around the pho­tog­ra­phy, and Dr. Roundbottom was born.

K. Tempest Bradford: Did the ini­tial inspi­ra­tion for Dr. Roundbottom start with the pho­tog­ra­phy or with the story?

Jeremiah Tolbert: The work started specif­i­cally in pho­tog­ra­phy. I had an oppor­tu­nity after a week of rain to go out and take some pic­tures of mush­rooms. I started play­ing with some of the images in post, and ended up cre­at­ing my most pop­u­lar pho­to­graph, the eye­ball mush­room. From there, I started writ­ing flash fic­tion around the pho­tog­ra­phy, and Dr. Roundbottom was born.

Tempest: How does a typ­i­cal Roundbottom image come about?

Jeremiah: I’m pretty strongly lim­ited by my own sur­round­ings and what I have the capac­ity to pho­to­graph myself. Some of them come from exper­i­ments in pho­to­graphic tech­niques that I want to try out, and some of them come from spe­cific images that I con­ceive and then try and pho­to­graph. Then some just come about as happy dis­cov­er­ies of odd things as I explore my sur­round­ings with cam­era in hand.

For instance, there are not a lot of peo­ple in the Roundbottom pho­tographs at this point because of my lim­ited bud­get and access to period cos­tumes. Luckily, I have leads on some cos­tum­ing resources, so that will change with time as I do more sto­ry­lines for the project. Also, my wife is hard at work sewing a more for­mal Roundbottom cos­tume for myself, and a cos­tume for a female char­ac­ter that’s part of the narrative.