This brings us to a conclusion of this run of photos here on the JeremiahTolbert.com blog. After a lot of consideration, I’ve decided to give up pursuing photography professionally for the time being.
As you may know, I’m unemployed and looking for work. When I was first laid off, I entertained the idea of trying to find a way to become a professional photographer instead of going back to web design. Surprisingly, there aren’t many “jobs” to be had as a photographer unless you like shooting weddings (I don’t).
And the truth is, I’m nowhere near good enough, and the time it will take for me to become good enough is far longer than the time I have. So I’m giving it up. I need to focus all of my efforts on things that might actually make me money, and photography has been nothing but a disappointment monetarily. My work just isn’t at the level it needs to be to sell anything but crappy stock.
I’m am so tired of spending energy on things I am “sort of” good at. Not great, not really good, just kinda good. That’s me and everything I do. I’m not great at anything. To become great at something, I need to give up some of the interest I have. So photography is going back to being a personal hobby and nothing more. I’ll be spending all my time from now on writing and designing and building websites. Mostly designing and building websites.
I might share a photo from time to time if I can be bothered to take any, but don’t expect them regularly anymore. I can’t waste any more time on this with our savings dwindling and my unemployment clock slowly running out. I have to be a responsible adult. Hard damned times we live in.
Once again, I am left wishing I was born 20 years earlier.
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Ah the curse of the genius. So easily distracted between pursuits.
It’s not distraction. It’s poverty.
Not so much that. More so that you drift from interest to interest and do really well at each, but never stay with it to monetise it. Writing, cartoons, photos, editing. Apparently people who are geniuses have a lot of trouble completing projects or sticking to one skill set.
We’re too darn curious and we get bored easily. We tend not to just sit down and say “Okay, This is what I do.” and then do it over and over.
That, my friend, is the curse of the genius.
I most definitely do not consider myself a genius. It does sound like the curse of being creative though.
And I drift from thing to thing looking for the one that I am actually great at. No luck so far.
Just don’t throw out your photography equipment. You can always come back to it later.