I looked at a stu­dio space yes­ter­day. It’s 175 square feet, in an artist’s coop.  $175 per month plus a $45 a month coop fee.  The ceil­ings are a bit lower than I like, with lights that hand down.  But it’s bet­ter than any­thing else I’ve heard about.  And I can exhibit work for sale there and they have a lot of foot traffic.

I don’t know.  It’s a big com­mit­ment (lease until the end of June) and most fright­en­ing, I have to go before the coop with my work and be approved.  The idea of hav­ing other artists look at my work and giv­ing it the thumbs up or thumbs down scares the crap out of me.  I just want a space to work in and get bet­ter, to shoot por­traits and the like.   The idea of my pho­tog­ra­phy being scru­ti­nized really scares the day­lights out of me.  I don’t think I’m very good yet.

But I need to save money for a poten­tial move in the spring.  I really shouldn’t be rent­ing the space.  But I don’t have more than 5 square feet of empty floor space in our apart­ment.  I’m at a loss for what to do. I’m lean­ing towards just not doing any­thing at all.

I’m strongly con­sid­er­ing clos­ing Roundbottom down for the win­ter.  I’m out of ideas and energy and good shoot­ing sub­jects.  But that would be a let down for the peo­ple who bought mem­ber­ships in the foun­da­tion.  Ugh.  I think I need some sleep.